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I am back writing again I pick up a pen and write much more now and at home everything is going swimmingly she says sigh šŸ˜” but smiling also through achicevements of the previous year  . I’m now not a politician on a local level or a Mayoress to the town which feels strange after two years with what is affectionately known as being in chain gang.  . I’m back to being me the wife and mother to the earth šŸŒ as jay says . My brain however  is always thinking about a thousand things the kids , the reconfiguration of the house , school , transition to college for my son who is now 16 , PIP forms ( personal independence payment changing due to sons age ,  echp (educational learning plans ) PLPs (personal learning plans ) the 42 page book of questions , grandchildren and the father of two of them a nightmare our kind of dna results , my sponsored children around the world šŸŒŽ and mainly my daughters and my youngest son Caleb  And the problems all over the world that I can’t fix šŸŒ. I then sleep šŸ’¤. I have chronic fatigue you see so everyday is an uphill battle . I have however mastered giving in when the body says stop ✋!! !!!!!!  It’s taken me years to do this and .....amounts of CBT cognitive behavioural thinking šŸ¤”.  . Why is that we don’t listen to our body’s we keep abusing our bodies like it’s a robot when our bodies are yelling at us to stop and rest . Now however it’s so much easier to say I’m having a sleep . It’s like reenergising the brain šŸ§  like charging your phone šŸ“± and waking up feeling a small sense of normality . The main change lately is going to bed early is listening to health guru my GP and my hubby.  Now sleep time is between 19.30 and 21.00 until 4 or 6 am . This in itself is my saviour and sanctuary . Although I havnt stopped the brain wizzing around and thinking of all the things I want to do . I want to read , watch something , write a letter , watch you tube which has interesting documentaries  . You think more don’t you when it’s quiet šŸ¤« you see and I can function in my mind so much easier and organise the filing in my brain  . Who else does this or is it just me lol šŸ˜‚?
During the day
Caleb is being home taught and that has been going great šŸ‘ and has been better for Calebs pace of
learning . Caleb has chronic fatigue but also has a processing difficulty  ( Receptive and Expressive
language disorder) so it can take time for Caleb to process things.  Unfortunately I didn’t get to see him at his prom with his friends gathered round him like I thought during  this last week or so .Although talking to Caleb he wouldn’t of felt comfortable going along and didn’t have an interest in this . It’s ok though I suppose there will be many more times for things like that in life having wonderful days and pleasant memorable evenings with the family  . It has been a difficult time both being poorly and being at home and not many friends flowing through the door . This has felt tough but I suppose everyone’s lives are moving and there family’s are growing and there isn’t the time .  However I felt sad that Calebs friends hadn’t seen Caleb but he doesn't  really talk about it now.

Back tommorow of to get some water šŸ’§ and rest my weary head after sleeping the afternoon and early evening away.

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