Hello I’m back again

I am back writing again I pick up a pen and write much more now and at home everything is going swimmingly she says sigh 😔 but smiling also through achicevements of the previous year  . I’m now not a politician on a local level or a Mayoress to the town which feels strange after two years with what is affectionately known as being in chain gang.  . I’m back to being me the wife and mother to the earth 🌏 as jay says . My brain however  is always thinking about a thousand things the kids , the reconfiguration of the house , school , transition to college for my son who is now 16 , PIP forms ( personal independence payment changing due to sons age ,  echp (educational learning plans ) PLPs (personal learning plans ) the 42 page book of questions , grandchildren and the father of two of them a nightmare our kind of dna results , my sponsored children around the world 🌎 and mainly my daughters and my youngest son Caleb  And the problems all over the world that I can’t fix 🌍. I then sleep 💤. I have chronic fatigue you see so everyday is an uphill battle . I have however mastered giving in when the body says stop ✋!! !!!!!!  It’s taken me years to do this and .....amounts of CBT cognitive behavioural thinking 🤔.  . Why is that we don’t listen to our body’s we keep abusing our bodies like it’s a robot when our bodies are yelling at us to stop and rest . Now however it’s so much easier to say I’m having a sleep . It’s like reenergising the brain 🧠 like charging your phone 📱 and waking up feeling a small sense of normality . The main change lately is going to bed early is listening to health guru my GP and my hubby.  Now sleep time is between 19.30 and 21.00 until 4 or 6 am . This in itself is my saviour and sanctuary . Although I havnt stopped the brain wizzing around and thinking of all the things I want to do . I want to read , watch something , write a letter , watch you tube which has interesting documentaries  . You think more don’t you when it’s quiet 🤫 you see and I can function in my mind so much easier and organise the filing in my brain  . Who else does this or is it just me lol 😂?
During the day
Caleb is being home taught and that has been going great 👍 and has been better for Calebs pace of
learning . Caleb has chronic fatigue but also has a processing difficulty  ( Receptive and Expressive
language disorder) so it can take time for Caleb to process things.  Unfortunately I didn’t get to see him at his prom with his friends gathered round him like I thought during  this last week or so .Although talking to Caleb he wouldn’t of felt comfortable going along and didn’t have an interest in this . It’s ok though I suppose there will be many more times for things like that in life having wonderful days and pleasant memorable evenings with the family  . It has been a difficult time both being poorly and being at home and not many friends flowing through the door . This has felt tough but I suppose everyone’s lives are moving and there family’s are growing and there isn’t the time .  However I felt sad that Calebs friends hadn’t seen Caleb but he doesn't  really talk about it now.

Back tommorow of to get some water 💧 and rest my weary head after sleeping the afternoon and early evening away.